“Is This Mine?” is a Lovibond May Rowanwood song from the Rowanwood music catalogue, centered on themes of self-questioning, responsibility, and emotional uncertainty, carried by a sparse, introspective piano arrangement with restrained vocal delivery.
When we fight I don’t know who I am
It feels like I strike—and that’s not what I meant
If I’m not who I think I am
Then what am I?
I suppose what I’m saying is—
Is it always me?
That’s not a rhetorical question
I honestly can’t see
I think of what you said
I can find little wrong
Perhaps an inflection misunderstood
My response sharp and strong
Why that sudden edge?
It came out hard
I hear it now
Too late to guard
Does it matter that I love you?
Or does all that disappear
The moment tension bids me speak
From anger—or maybe fear?
I sit alone—you’re avoiding me
Emotional blood scents the air
An oppression of a wound I opened
I wonder—should I dare…
…Reach out to you
You pull away
Nothing I can do?
Nothing I can say?
Is even trying to mend this
Just another way
I’ve found to make it worse—
Pushing you away?
A pressure in my skin
Like it’s waiting to break
A silence that swells, empty—
More than I can take
Where are you?
Who am I?
Did I bring this on?
Is this mine?
Do I carry something
I don’t even know is there?
Something that turns what’s special
Into empty air?
Where are you?
Who am I?